so i am pretty stoned right now
ryan says that i should write down my thoughts
all of them
sometimes i wonder what i should do
with myself and my future, as well as my past
i get stuck in them
my past a lot more than the present
the future more than the past
but more likely than not, im thinking ambiguously
do we really need partners?
isnt everything always changing, always rotating, reincarnating
how are we supposed to commit to just one
where does this lack to commit stem from?
scary memories of the past lurk into my present
haunting my choices and shadowing my future
why cant i unleash this shackle?
damn pissed that things are this way
want to take an iron skillet to her head sometimes
instead ill straighten up these lines
maybe pop some caps and relax
figure some shit out thats been tangled up inside
i dont ever feel normal, whats that even fucking mean?
i feel like a trapezoid around a bunch of squares
their drive, i dont understand
different mindsets probably
it gets exhausting trying to blend
there are things that i like
i get excite!
sativa indica stares mother earth intimacy adrenaline
my uromastyx, daemon. his name for the time being.
ohhhh, i just want to smile about the things in my life
sometimes i cant sleep at night
i get plagued by the terrors of the day
i need a teddy
what good will that do me
too stuck on facts and feelings
cant even remember how to dream
thats probably why im this way
but i dont believe i could ever stop dreaming
maybe too much stimulation
im tired. peace.
